ILY

is not fat like me now

i found the problem
not on you
not my problem
is timing
we have no time
we don't have enough time to know more about each other

Time, is an addition of distance
a long distance, a different time
what i want, what you think
both of us, we don't know

A chance, we knew each other at the place
A time, distract me and you from 2 places

when you are happy, you cannot share
just only you and your friends know how excited are you

when i am sad, i cannot tell
just only me and the surrounding know what is the happen

i cannot blame you are careless, that you don't know everything
i cannot stand for you, because the time and distance

sorry that I Love You

everyday, everyone

this picture,i am not fat like now!!

haha

it just only a topic, don't mind it!
i should be happy or sad?

stephy, you gain weight is it?
stephy, your face seems more circle
stephy, your arms look more fat
stephy, only one week holiday, why so fast u have been change FAT
stephy, cannot imagined more 2 weeks, will you become our lecturer? she is pregnant
OMG

i am so happy to see my classmates and my sweetheart friend
alright
i got BIG tummy, CIRCLE face, STRONG arms
DON'T JEALOUS laaaa :P
some people get shock, i more SHOCK
some people were laughing, i more HAPPY
some people felt weird, so fast to gain weight like a FAT WOMAN, aiks... i am the FAT LADY
FAT IS CUTE, but not for me
FAT is too ugly for me

after a week, how many kg i can lose?
please laaaaaaaa....

MOOD

where is my happy?

seriously, i lost a lot laaa...

mood like a moon
sometimes perfect
sometimes lose

my mood is not okay this few days
sometimes up
sometimes down

this happen make me
sometimes happy
sometimes bad

it is stress?
i am homesick?

i cannot control my mood right now
so sulk
this feeling not nice at all
but cannot tell
don't know how to tell

maybe is a time!!

Yummy ^^

super double delicious

wanna try? follow me go back kampong :D

today is last day of holiday

today  i need go back to mentari

today i away from my home again

arhhh.. daddy mummy i so miss u laaaa

yooo.. when is next time i  can go back home again?

i can drive, i can eat alot cheap and nice

Food, not expensive is delicious

Food, not means cheap then not good

few days, few months for diet

1 week, 1 day, 1 hour to gain weight

wanlao ehhhhhh

i got circle face, so 'CUTE'

i hate laaa 

have a nice day

and good to everyone your Monday :D

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

stupid stair
stupid foot
stupid me

why the edge of stair so sharp
why my foot motion so slow
why i am hurt because the stair

Pain and blooding :'(

执迷不悟

=（

有时候会迷

有时候会失

有时候连自己要么也不知道

偶尔会着迷

偶尔会迷失

偶尔会忘了自己该有的本分

逼着自己不要

逼着自己推掉

逼着自己讨厌那所谓的喜好

就连自己想要些什么也不知道

就连自己属于的什么也不知道

咱们

会有迷失的一天

为的是让我们能确认自己更清楚

咱们

会有执迷的一天

为的是让我们知道真正需要什么

说的简单，我们不该执迷不悟

说的容易，我们不该异想天开

我们的思想并非如此简单容易就随

懊恼的每一步带出精彩的人生

但愿：

寻找一个正真属于自己的一切。

智慧-降临

无言

百卷书、万知识；
怎么我却用不着？


我被蒙蔽了
就像阳光被乌云挡着，无法为大地支付
就像我们有苦说不尽，啃咽在半喉咙中


明知不对
明知错的
却还是选择
却还是做的


蠢
笨
已不足来形容


智慧，请您灵光一现，将我提拔。 =(
《明知山有虎，偏向虎山行》

辛幸性

不知辛苦，何来幸福；
一生漫长，辛幸相守；
性之缠绕，我已忘了-我是谁。

HOLIDAY

how do you spend your holiday?

have a travel?

staying at home?

or anything else?

MY HOLIDAY

sure and only balik hometown

how boring a kampung is?

for me, i don't think so

i love my place so so much

a lot of nice food

important is CHEAP!!
hiak hiak

my 6 packs, now really become 1 tummy liao T_T

and this holiday really let's me kniw that

what is actually FULL FULL FULL laaaaa

enjor your holiday too  :*

ENJOY

;)

is a time for me to take a rest
is a time for me to have a holiday
is a time for me to relax mind

maybe stress, make me always
MAD
BAD
SAD

i need time to adjust it to restart my brain
get back my mind, my original smile

alright, it seems long time no laugh until eyes cannot open
alright, it seems tired cover my teeth, i cannot smile directly
alright, it is a right timing now to find my dimple out

after holiday, i want laugh laugh laugh, until u feel annoying with me :D
but not, i still cannot do that

sorry, i seem promised someone, i must happy everyday
sorry to my dearest, i tried to do that, it is hard for my life now, but i always try my best to do not get mad easily
no worries, during holiday, i will miss you and your hostel and your family deep deeply ;)

HOLIDAY, how do i spend the holiday?
nobody will free on next week?
it's ok, assignment and my family willing to accompany me
and my brain, my mind, really really is a time to relax

the complicated life,  really lose myself
where is the right way for me, seriously, i don't know
where should i go
when should i stop
only one answer, I DON'T KNOW

take a rest, maybe i can think fresh after this

cheeeeeeer everyone, have a nice mid-term sem break ;)

what i want?!

look at me and try to know more about me laaaa

what you know from me?

what you want from me?

what you can get from me?

i try to calm down myself

i try to hold on something

i try to stop everything

but there is hard for me

and i were giving up, and find back the bad way

on that way,

 i try to be a MS.WHATEVER

but it is not easy for me

that is not my character

i try to say IT'S OK

but i don't have reason for myself

why i gonna to say that not only one time

i try to force myself DON'T THINK SO MUCH

but my mind keep running

how bad you are and who are you

I know you like me

is it the LIKE only have a surface?

accompany me, have a joke, chit-chat?

can i ask some more?

can i have some more?

WHAT I WANT is not only these

what i want is not LOUIS VUITTON, GUCCI, CHANEL, HERMES.

i want you

KNOW MORE ABOUT ME

CARE MORE ABOUT ME

not the surface

i can't feel comfort right now!

ONE and ONLY

cheeeeeeeer ;)

it can to describe
a chance
a love
a life

Chance
I have giving you a chance, you seem nothing can do with the chance
YOU LOST IT right now and you are loser
alright, is one and only
when it past, you are fail!
i just tell the truth


DON'T ever say ' I CANNOT'
never try never ever know what is the answer will be the last
i wont force to do anything, and i cannot do that
the chance, already gave, just only you.

seriously, i don't like a person do nothing but talk too much
you have do nothing for me
what i want, u do not know
what i dislike, u did all the time
even u tried to my everything
may be you are the good person
but not for me
I can't feel any with this
this is over!
no more chance for you ;)

LOVE
I dare you to let me be all, the one and only
Promise i am worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove up i am the one who can ;)
i sang this song before to the one guy
he is a bad guy in my close friend eyes
alright, no one is perfect
even he no cares about me all the time
but i feel comfort
and now i still like him
i still choose to sing for him
one day, may be i will regret the day my decision


LIFE
same
it is one and only
only one shelf life for me and you and he and she and anyone
once we die not a game, cannot come again and repeat
so please do anything before you die
make something to give yourself happy
do something no regret
create something proud of yourself
not for me, he, she, they, is YOURSELF
life is not too short, but it is fast
cheer ;)

oh my LIFE

it is a part of my life
so boring
nothing to do the whole day
who i date, all cannot
they are so busy, i am so boring
 fucking life
shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
my friend, why your class till so late
my friend, why your assignment haven't done
my friend, why your dinner not with me today

few days ago, they have their own things to do
i have my own boring day in my room
and some annoying!!!
FUCK YOU
Fuck My Life
Go DIE
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........................................................

Date Me Out!

belated birthday celebration :D

I LOVE YOU

and my third wish, hope become true and forever :D

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you..

12noon, we have a lunch at OHANA Taylor's Lakeside
just a simple normal lunch for everyone
a birthday song
a cake
that time, i was guessing who birthday today and why i don't know

the song is sing for me
the cake is take for me
ohh ohh.. i just realize is a belated birthday celebration

awwww.. what i should on the next minute?
a surprise
a suddenly
it is a plan by my classmates
not last minute
not forget
my birthday is NOT YET END laa

i gonna to cry laaaaa
I LOVE YOU

not easy as what you think o.O

don't think so much, you can't get anything from me ever without my permission.

i want a boyfriend
i want a rich man
i want a handsome guy

errr... it is impossible just only get from what you think
is it got some purpose from that?
help
money
or anything
same to a boy, a man
they want a girlfriend
they want a sweet wife
they want a woman
not only, some they want some special from a girl, a woman

can human stop thinking about that?
for me, i can stand for that, but can't stop thinking about that!

is it same to guys?
but i can't accept man is lovin on woman body or anything else, not her heart.
even nowadays, all human being for purpose
sorry i can't say anything, even myself, i think so i did that before this
but... i really cant accept it!!
even i try to force myself to face it!!

i don't have money
i don't have big breast and ass
i don't have sexy body

is it guy won't interesting with me?

here, i am not asking you, you and you look on me!!!!!

thanks..

what is human being?

baby girl from china
she was only 3 years old
she met a cruel driver
she was dead incident

when the baby girl hit by a car on a road
only 3 years old
a life just knew how to walk
a small body
a small step
a small voice
how did you her so cruel

even you don't know her
even you don't know what to do
even you can't do anything once it was happened

please.. take out your brain and heart!
Brain, to think how to solve the problem
Heart, to feel how pain was the girl and do something
not only see and act nothing.

so bad, the passerby did not lend their hand to help
so sad, a good person did not appear on the time
so mad, what is human being on this society!

SUNDAY 16-10-2011

2days ago...
SUNDAY always is a great day
do you agree with that?

Taylor's created the event WORLD FOOD DAY
a lot of fun
no regret
it is happy and more fun then go to shopping mall!!
yeah....
I LOVE TODAY (16-10-2011)
and don't know why i keep listening this song
MOVE LIKE JAGGER
hooray........

my day, it is havent finish

alright, this is my 1st time received flowers LOL
don't laugh at me!!!!!! :P

The day, still a lot of fun
thanks my classmates take pictures with me
thanks my friend dinner with me
thanks my brother celebrate with me

a lot of photo waiting me to upload
a lot of memory waiting me to save down
a lot of moment make me happy

finally i can handle my assignment
finally i can totally forget all the bad
finally i can become more happy

and my friends they are no worry
and my uncle he is more happy
and my face is look more pretty

thank you the present ( CLOTHES,SHOES,FLOWERS,DRAWING)
thank you the dinner (TGI Friday's)
thank you the celebrate party (RedBox)

wakaka

thanks my BELOVEDs

KISSSSSSS

always be THANKFUL
my day
my life
my moment
my everything
can pass it with smoothly
can pass it with safety
can pass it with happiness
can pass it with no regret

alright,
sometimes i feel sad
sometimes i feel bad
sometimes i feel down
this call LIFE

we will meet everything when we alive
happy or sadness
the important is no regret to everything! ;)

My Day
i am ENJOYING,
even half a day i was doing my assignment
even my darling she and he can't pass with me
even my family not be with me

i got surprise whole the day 14-10-2011
my young 18 years old :D
i got surprise they celebrate with me
i got surprise i received some birthday present
i got surprise between me and YOU
everything on that day really is a BIG SURPRISE!!!

thanks my BELOVEDs at all the time
not only my birthday then I LOVE YOU
since i knew YOU
start I LOVE YOU :D

BIG DAY

THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU

alright, 14-10-2011, Friday, My day, Big day

not only, i have a BIG SURPRISE from THEM

First day in my 18years old, i am excited to face it :D
First second already gave my darlingS

i really get SURPRISE from them.

i thought i have to plan buy myself a cake, make a wish, and call some friends eat the cake.

i am doing my assignment, i am thinking how is tomorrow in my mind.

haha .. SORRY :D

suddenly.. they came in, my tears drop off, just a little while

the surprise make me HAPPY, make me EXCITED

so sorry, i don't cry in front of u guys,

not because it is not touching enough

is only so SUDDENLY,SURPRISE

tears haven arrived my eyes.

yeah :D
so happy can see all my classmates,

and talk together even just a moment.

ASSIGNMENT make my day not much more fun

everyone is rushing their assignment

hmmmmm.... I AM GLAD i got u guys :D
now i gotta continue my assignment laaaaa...  =)

THANK YOU EVERYONE !! your lovely heart with a sweet wish  ♥

GOODBYE

puff~~~~ all the bad disappear :D

how many time i need to say?
SAY GOODBYE TO BAD
goodbye yesterday
goodbye my 17th years old
goodbye my sad
goodbye my old
goodbye my past

awwww... today is my BIG DAY

Thank god, i have today
thanks my parents, my family
and my friends with the big surprise.
my dearest, my darling, my 1st second at 18years old, already gave u guys :D

SORRY
before,i had wasted my few days to do nothing
spent a lot money to buy anything without thinking and counting
let my family, friends worry about me
that before I was down and down

PROMISE
i will take my time
i will use properly start after my birthday :p
and i won't let you all worry about me
i will enjoy my life time with you and you and you :D
goodbye my past
WELCOME 18, a new day for me REBORN


HAPPY BIRTHDAY
enjoy your day too .. ♥

ANNOYING

slappp me please

14-10-2011 is coming soon
FRIDAY
so what?

still need to pass
still need to attend class
still need to alive

anyone, same need to work
anyone, same need to rush their assignment
anyone, same need to enjoy their own timing

time, will run
time, will move
time, will change to next day

14th October is only a normal friday
for me, only me, i think it special
for what?
actually my mind should think about thanks mummy born me this way
but i am thinking other ways
i am thinking what i can get
the day after, what will be better
how important the day for me?
so WHAT?
it is normal simple day
i found chinese sentence for myself
没什么了不起
alright, it is really nothing special.

my dear family and dear friends,
so sorry that my mind, anything what i did before this really bad
sorry that i am annoying laa.........

my mind

do you think i am smile with my heart?

someone can tell me what happen to me?
this few day, my mind my body,lazy is around me
and assignment, if i keep the laziness until the end, i have time to finish it?

someone can wake me up from the trouble?
these troubles is keep disturbing me
i feel annoying for myself
sorry to my parents
i am wasting my time to do nothing

hmmm...
my life
my mind
my trouble
my sadness
my laziness
WHO CAN HELP ME ?

NOBODY

my life, only me can work it be better
my mind, only me can control it be happy
my trouble, only me can solve it
my sadness, only me can clean it
my laziness, only me remove it and work hard

FAMILY, FRIENDS, LOVE, PEOPLE i know and i don't know
they only a part of my life, they can stand for me, they can be my side
but they can't help me actually
ONLY ME
myself, walk out from the nightmare to face it all in the world.

PLEASE TELL ME if you found something with me
PLEASE TELL ME if that you want to leave me away

cheeeeeeeer ;)

i gonna to face it all

oh my OCTOBER, i think this month i can have more.

i think that i can get more surprise in this month.

exactly, wrong enough!!

OCTOBER

i love this month, actually it is because my birthday month.

i don't like anymore with this month!

maybe, i was over excited, it is a good month

and now i think i was wrong.

everything seems happened not good to me.

i meet 1 guy, met the complicated story.

my close friend, i feel something bad, we are totally different compare with before, she seems like want far me away soon. start from this few day.

maybe i did something wrong, so sorry, please tell me, what's wrong, and i correct it.

my face, PIMPLEs laa..

everything seems like a knife, keep moving on my direction.

MY GUY

maybe he meet his NEW, maybe he still MINE

the feeling CHANGE, i am so confusing. so sorry it is hurt to you and me

but don't forget me and the PROMISE :D

MY FRIEND

maybe you meet some problem, you are stress, but you never tell, and just silent.

for this, my dear friend, if can you can share, we can help if can.

or i really did some wrong, oh so sorry, please forgive me and turn back our happy moment

i don't wanna to lose you.

OCTOBER

please pass faster, i don't wanna get you anymore

you always hurt me at all the time

i am pain

i need to find NOVEMBER to recover :*(

at the same time, i found someone who love me, care me all the time

she is my sweetheart all the time, since we knew each other.

she will come out all the time, when i am mad, i am sad.

thank you I LOVE YOU

TODAY 09-10-2011

before journey

i had few bad days before this

i had nothing to do in my room

like a crazy, play the game all the time

THE WORST, i keep listening the same music 24 hours

even sleeping time, i on my laptop turn the music REPLAY and REPLAY.

maybe i should not take the music make more mad

but, that time the music is suit for me..

SUNDAY, make me fun

bring me alot of happy

thanks SUNDAY and my beloved SHEANY

oh my darling SHEANY ;)

SUNDAY always is the best day to everyone

even a family, worker, student, children.

take a rest on SUNDAY

enjoy your SUNDAY

gathering on SUNDAY

WOW.. great SUNDAY i ever have

I LOVE :)

you should choose shopping to release the bad in your mind :D

have a nice day..

Happy Sunday

kiss my lovely sunday =/

09-10-2011
Today is SUNDAY..

wow.. great day for everyone!!
TODAY, is a beautiful day.
Jasmine coming
We go shopping.
It seems so long waiting for today.

I am happy for now, I can move to a happy place, to get happy.
Yeah.. :D

HAVE FUN!! <3

and YOU TOO...

what is long lasting?

I LOVE YOU?
FOREVER?

emm ... that's no way to keep this moving!
alot of trouble waiting for the long way
even the happy moment, only make forget the sad a little while.
not longer, your unhappy pop out again.

even a friendship, don't wish forever between the relationship!
u may get hurt with your target, or disappointed
i just hoping when the moment is happening, me and you and her and she is the happiest
that is enough. i can remember once a day, we have a happy moment memorable.

even my best friend, how we are the best in other eyes?
time flies so fast
our friendship follow the time run away.
some happen, some problem, i can learn from that
i won't force someone to make happy with me, just hope someone can get happy from other way.

start from today, i won't make something that may make you unhappy.
i just waiting the time

if one day, you want me belong with you.
ya.. i can, my friend, i always be with you.
i will come out when u needed
i will disappear when i am useless in your life.

i can do that, and you can be happy =)
stay in the moment, our happy moment.

cheer :)

confuse

seriously, i am confusing what are you thinking.

you told me 

you are sad

you are hurt

you are moody

BECAUSE OF ME

you told someone your lover

you told someone you have been sex life

you told someone about me

I JUST REALIZE

i am sad

i am stress

i am afraid

i am scare

BECAUSE OF YOU

i am selfish

i am over something

i am confusing

BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW ME

from time to time

from everything
DISTRACT YOU AND ME

oh my life, without you, we still can be friend ?
oh my man, without love, we still can chat ?

oh my friend, without anything, we still can continue?

I **** YOU 

DECISION

i should not talking anymore

in a relationship, no wrong or right.

sometimes, you may confuse to do any decision.
sometimes, you may afraid your decision.
sometimes, you may regret your decision.

there is nothing happen from the decision, you only get hurt or hate to someone.
there is nothing problem between the relationship, you only no chance be the girlfriend or boyfriend.

oh my DECISION, i am scared to do any decision.
but life is always asking to choose a way from something everyday

i am confuse, i am afraid, i am regret.
but there is no way to give you reverse.

it may hurt you, by the way, i got the same feeling.

Maybe, you should hate me.
Maybe, you should angry me.
And, i will respect.
And, i will away.

sorry, i am selfish, to hurt someone.
sorry, i am stupid, without thinking.

Maybe one day i will happy.
Maybe one day i will regret.

for you:
do something the way u can get happy.
after 2years, can i still asking mushroom soup, cream puff, and spaghetti?

煎熬

早知道 你只是飛鳥

擁抱後 手中只剩下 羽毛

當初你又何必浪費

那麼多咖啡和玫瑰 來打擾


我想要 安靜的思考

天平上 讓愛恨不再 動搖

一想你就平衡不了

我關燈還是關不掉 這風暴


[Chorus]
心一跳 愛就開始煎熬

每一分 每一秒

火在燒 燒成灰有多好

叫思念 不要吵

我相信我已經快要

快要把你忘掉

跟寂寞 再和好


得不到 也不要乞討

怎麼做 不需要別人

轉告 在陷的太深的海底

我也只剩下我自己 能依靠


我相信我已經快要

是真的我快要

快要可以微笑

去面對 下一個 擁抱 ♥ 

颓废、还我平静心

时间太快，我看不清；
时间太慢，我等不及；
我的世界，开始慌了。


不是才发觉，而是我忘了。


小小世界里，单靠一个我，一双腿和手，我真的不行。
短短人生里，波折与不幸，快乐与幸福，我们留不住。
我们却可得到无价的经验，活着的路途我们需要忠告。


一个启示让我将忘记的想起，可悲我忘了我需要的。
什么时候了还需要他人提醒，无时无刻让他人操心。


复杂，这一次的事情又有多复杂，只知道它并不简单。


今日的我，并非昨天的我；
今后的我，还是需要继续奔跑。


一个经历，一个启示。


从错误中学习、反省、领悟，并不是每个人都可以。
没有是完美的，即使是完美也有一部分的瑕疵欠缺。


我希望我们之间是有那么一个机会，更希望是零机心的。
我需要时间重叠这一切混绕的事情，更想要一些清净心。


我会学习如何面对这世界所谓的残酷和现实。
我更会在生活里找回一个属于我的小小世界。


一个属于我的，不管面对多少事情，他还是我的。
除非不是真的，它就会随时间流失，等待或停止?
不是时间问题，而是人类的思想观，我会好好的。♥